These are the 50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind, and my personal answers.
How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? Some days I feel like I am still young, like maybe late teens to early 20s. But then I think all about the heartache and difficulties I have had, and all the wisdom I have acquired from it all… I think at the very oldest I would be in my mid-40s.
Which is worse, failing or never trying? Though failing is a difficult experience, I believe never trying is worse. Never trying, you have to live with the regret of not following your dreams or plans. Regrets is one of the worst feelings to have.
If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? Life is short, but we have to do things to get by. Unfortunately our society is very money-driven. In order to even exist inside shelter, you have to pay for land/rent, power, food, etc. So we work, even if we don’t want to, to earn that money to have our basic needs met. And in doing so, we often miss out on opportunities to do what we really want to do.
When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? At this point in my life, I have said more than I have done. I have a lot of unfinished plans. But I will fulfill a lot more before my life is done.
What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? I’d like to see more equality, and more awareness. Equality among people through means of money and rights would make a big difference. And awareness of the effects of our actions on others and on the planet would make a huge difference in the way people used resources as well.
If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? Creating art – digital art, paintings, drawings, tattoos – just whatever I could do to display my creative side. That would make me rich.
Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? I have always settled for what I was doing, but more and more, little by little, I am doing what I believe in. I am living honest, trying to be more eco-friendly. Living my dream would be having my own home on my own land and being much more self-sustaining. But it will take time to get there.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? That would give me 7 more years – I would work a lot harder and faster to achieve my goals.
To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? For the most part I have made the choices who have made me who I am today. The way I was raised, and the losses I have endured were not under my control, but the way I let it affect my life is my choice, and I am very aware of it.
Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? I am more worried about doing things right for me and my family, and for the Earth as a whole.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do? I do my best to respectfully mediate. Perhaps state that yes, maybe his or her actions could be perceived that way, but point out that everyone has their reasons for their actions, and no harm was intended. Overall, I would defend the friend.
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? Follow your dreams no matter what anyone tells you, and no matter what happens.
Would you break the law to save a loved one? Yes.
Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? Somewhat. I think the 2 can go hand in hand quite easily.
What’s something you know you do differently than most people? Parenting. I personally don’t think I do anything that special or out of the ordinary, but I have had a lot of compliments on how much I care what’s going on with my kids in school and at home. I talk to them like people and I always put them first. Its just instinct and nature to me.
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? Things that make me the very happiest: my loved ones (human and furry), nature, learning about science and my chosen path of spirituality, history and mythology, and art. These things are special to me because of the life I have lived, and the roles they have played over the years I have been on this Earth. Not everyone has walked my path, not everyone has the same desires, pleasures, and dislikes. That is what makes us all unique.
What is one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back? I want to buy or rent a house on the edge of town that has plenty of room for my family and a big yard for a garden and room to run around for the kids and the dog. Money is holding me back.
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Plenty of memories and heartache. I’m working on it though.
If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? I now live in Iowa and always have. I would move someplace with more trees (forests), mountains, and/or an ocean. Maybe Washington or Oregon. If I had to leave the USA, I would most likely go to Australia. Besides the deadly wildlife, I have met quite a few people online that are just plain awesome, all from Australia.
Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? No, and it moves the same.
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? As ignorance is one of my pet peeves, and I am already quite aware of many of the marvels of the universe, I would rather be a worried genius.
Why are you, you? I am an accumulation of my DNA, my geological location, the people who have surrounded me, the experiences I have lived, and the choices I have made since the moment I was conceived. That is what makes me who I am.
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? Yes, for the most part. I am more now than ever.
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? Losing touch with a good friend who lives near you. The emotional distance is more painful than miles.
What are you most grateful for? Mother Earth for sustaining the life of everything I know as a human.
Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? Oooh that is a tough one. I have some pretty amazing memories, and I have a great life. I think I would keep my old memories.
Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first? No. Truth is in the proof, and proof doesn’t come without a challenge.
Has your greatest fear ever come true? Yes and no. My greatest fear is losing loved ones. And the fear became a reality in 2009. But that instance has made my fear all the greater.
Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now? Actually yes, I remember it exactly. 5 years ago today I was upset because my boyfriend cheated on me with his ex. It took a lot of time away from our short time together. It does still upset me a little because he has since passed away. But it wouldn’t have changed the course of events, so I guess it is rather insignificant.
What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special? I have two. One is playing in a grass field with 2 of my friends. We were making tunnels in the tall grass and pretending it was our home. It was fun and careless. The feeling of no worries, no anxiety, just pure childhood innocence and fun. The second is spending time with my grandma in the hotel they used to own. Spending summers there and helping my grandma clean the hotel rooms. Making food with her in the kitchen, and her reading me bedtime stories at night. I don’t see her anymore, so I cherish those memories.
At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? I don’t think I have ever felt more passionate and alive than I do right now. I have so much that I have worked for, and I am learning more and more every day how to accomplish more. I am taking control of my life, and taking responsibility for my actions and thoughts, and I am the happiest I have every been because of it.
If not now, then when? As soon as I can afford it.
If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose? I could lose my hope, and that is never a good thing to lose.
Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever? Yes, once or twice. Body language and mutual feelings say a lot all on their own.
Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? Because they are selfish and mightier-than-thou, and they don’t at all practice what they preach. That is why I do not associate myself with a church or a particular organized religion.
Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? No. Its quite individual.
If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? No. My job is being a parent, it would just enhance my family’s life and we would continue to work toward our goals… and considering money is a common obstacle for us, we would be able to achieve quite a bit at first.
Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? More work I actually enjoy doing, absolutely for sure. I do not like being bored or idle.
Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? Nope.
When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? I’ve never really put myself out there like that. Perhaps its time to start.
If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? Yes, every moment.
Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? No, not at all. I would never want fame, and I am happy with they way I look.
What is the difference between being alive and truly living? If you’re alive, you’re breathing and your heart is beating. If you’re truly living, you’re doing what you need to do to get by, and fulfilling dreams and wishes for yourself and others.
When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? The time for that is right now, and always.
If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Our egos don’t like to take the blows of being wrong, or rejection. It hurts, and can be embarrassing or shameful. All unpleasant feelings.
What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? I would dress differently, my whole style would be different. I would live off the land, and maybe even be nude a lot more. lol
When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? Often – last night.
What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? I love my children and my fiance. I tell them and show them often by taking care of them, affection, and making them happy.
In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that? Yesterday – probly. I made permanent art, and it will always be there for a reminder. But for the couple of days before that, probly not.
Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? A little of both. Being in a relationship is a partnership, so we both make decisions.